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Often You've Such High Expectations Of People ...

Tue Jul 21, 2009, 3:59 AM
  • Mood: Affection
… and on rare occasions they exceed them.


Little over 24 hours ago, I was at the airport saying goodbye to my dear friend Gon, aka :icontygorgrinnem:, who was here for a week. I have known him online for 4 or 5 years, and always considered him a great friend, but to meet him in person and have that proven true is a wonderful feeling because the person you envisage online is not necessarily as good as the person in the flesh most of the time.


It was a sad coincidence that the day before Gon was due to arrive one of my best friends passed away, and the day after his arrival, Fred and I had to go to the funeral. Gon was very supportive all the while, and for this I am very grateful. This is just part of his charm, because he is also incredibly sweet, caring and fun to be with. It doesn’t hurt that he’s also very easy on the eyes :P



Tiggy, you’re a terrific person, and I’m glad you enjoyed yourself. I’m sorry that there were hiccups all throughout your stay, but we made the best of what we had :)

She's Gone ...

Sun Jul 12, 2009, 2:49 PM
  • Mood: Sorrow
"A 24-year-old woman from Zabbar - Tamara Psaila, lost her life this morning after losing consciousness in the water when taking part in a charity dive.

The dive was organised by the Atlam Subaqua Club in Qawra. Ms Psaila was rushed to hospital by ambulance but died following a medical intervention.

This was the 11th time that the activity, which was collecting funds for the Dar tal-Providenza was organised. The event was stopped after the woman was taken to hospital and people who had already gave their contribution were offered reimbursement.

In a statement, Atlam said that the dives were manned by qualified instructors and accompanied by qualified divers.

Participants completed a medical questionnaire and any medical matters that required further clarification were addressed to the medical team made up of three practitioners and a nurse.

By 11.30 a.m., 75 persons had dived. The participant brought up from the water unconscious had been doing a taster dive. Efforts were made to revive her and the ambulance was called.

Atlam Sub Aqua Club expressed its solidarity with all family members."



That 24 year old is one of my best friends, Tamara, or :iconfloydianwings: and she's gone. We never got to say goodbye, or tell her one last time how much we love her.

A phone call in the middle of the afternoon. My jokester friend tells me there is no easy way to say it: Tamara is dead. My heart stops but my mind urges me to tell him to stop joking like that cos it's not funny. But I know that he would never joke like that about someone so special. I know that the world will never be the same again because I can feel it crack like damaged glass. It's so surreal, thinking that she's not with us anymore ... I can't take it.

I cried and I cried. Then I ran to the hospital to see Chris who had called me because he is there. He cannot believe it either so he wants to see her. I said I'd go with him, but I don't want to see her like that. Someone so caring and warm shouldn't be on a cold metallic slab. But maybe like Chris I need to see with my own eyes. Even if I then pluck them out, at least I can believe. But they won't let me in because I don't work there and Chris does. Orders of the police.

It's a few hours later and I am still a mess, but I keep telling myself that she had a hard life yet she was always smiling and caring for others, so the best way to honour her memory is to take up her example and focus on the good nine years we shared. But my mind keeps telling me that each of these good times is in the past, and it hurts so bad ... Then, one of my friends posts her DA account link and I visit it for the first time in over a year. My eye is drawn to one photo in her gallery, besides the one of herself, which breaks up another piece of my heart. But nothing prepares me for this [link]

That is me in the photo. As she said in her description, she never asked my permission to upload it. Furthermore, I remember that say but not her taking my photo. I am stunned ... She did a nice job, and I never got to tell her that. My heart's dying, and I wish it would just croak for good because I am already so tired of this pain. God how we miss her :(

Ten Reasons Why Gay Marriage Is WRONG!

Tue May 26, 2009, 6:11 AM
  • Mood: Humor
  • Reading: Nation - Terry Pratchett
Sent to me by email a long time ago. Enjoy :P

1. Being gay is not natural. And as you know Americans have always rejected unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

2. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because, as you know, a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4. Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5. Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed. The sanctity of Britany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6. Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7. Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8. Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9. Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

Pet Diaries (Joke)

Sat Mar 7, 2009, 8:36 AM
  • Mood: Humor
  • Reading: Good Omens - T. Pratchett, N. Gaiman
Excerpts from a Dog's Diary:

8:00 am - Dog food! My favorite thing!

9:30 am - A car ride! My favorite thing!

9:40 am - A walk in the park! My favorite thing!

10:30 am - Got rubbed and petted! My favorite thing!

12:00 pm - Lunch! My favorite thing!

1:00 pm - Played in the yard! My favorite thing!

3:00 pm - Wagged my tail! My favorite thing!

5:00 pm - Milk Bones! My favorite thing!

7:00 pm - Got to play ball! My favorite thing!

8:00 pm - Wow! Watched TV with the people! My favorite thing!

11:00 pm - Sleeping on the bed! My favorite thing!



Excerpts from a Cat's Diary:

Day 983 of my captivity...

My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects. They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while the other inmates and I are fed hash or some sort of dry nuggets.

Although I make my contempt for the rations perfectly clear, I nevertheless must eat something in order to keep up my strength.

The only thing that keeps me going is my dream of escape. In an attempt to disgust them, I once again vomit on the carpet. Today I decapitated a mouse and dropped its headless body at their feet.I had hoped this would strike fear into their hearts, since it clearly demonstrates what I am capable of. However, they merely made condescending comments about what a 'good little hunter' I am. Bastards.

There was some sort of assembly of their accomplices tonight. I was placed in solitary confinement for the duration of the event. However, I could hear the noises and smell the food. I overheard that my confinement was due to the power of 'allergies.' I must learn what this means and how to use it to my advantage.

Today I was almost successful in an attempt to assassinate one of my tormentors by weaving around his feet as he was walking. I must try this again tomorrow -- but at the top of the stairs.

I am convinced that the other prisoners here are flunkies and snitches. The dog receives special privileges. He is regularly released - and seems to be more than willing to return. He is obviously retarded. The bird has got to be an informant. I observe him communicating with the guards regularly. I am certain that he reports my every move. My captors have arranged protective custody for him in an elevated cell, so he is safe. For now ...

Family Roots

Mon Jan 12, 2009, 2:15 PM
  • Mood: Humor
  • Reading: Emails and messages
It's been a long while since Neffy and me updated you folks with some of the fun talks we have. Enjoy ;)

acid nef (22:35:27): have i told you i've been getting into family history stuffs?
DarkBear84 (22:35:40): *Shakes head* Found anything?
acid nef (22:36:13): well on my greek side a fair bit
acid nef (22:36:18): don't have access to my english side
DarkBear84 (22:37:44): What did you find on the greek side?
acid nef (22:38:48): well i'm descended from poor farmers mostly
acid nef (22:49:50): nothing too exciting ^^;
DarkBear84 (22:50:28): *Gnaws on your peasant tail* Good stock tho =D
acid nef (22:52:20): n_n
acid nef (22:52:32): have you done any research on your family tree?
DarkBear84 (22:53:01): Look at it this way: poor farmers who survived long enough to have and raise kids means you're near indestructible *Thumbs up*
DarkBear84 (22:53:42): I have actually, for quite a long time But I find some contrasting info
DarkBear84 (22:54:31): Recently found one site linking us to the Macbeth surname, and earlier one which said we are linked to King Duncan the First, which is actually the king Macbeth murdered in the play
DarkBear84 (22:54:50): Then again, it might be true cos I think in the play it is stated they were distant cousins
acid nef (22:55:04): that's awesome xD
acid nef (22:55:06): you need to track down documents
DarkBear84 (22:55:17): I do, but it's very expensive
acid nef (22:55:28): aw.. worth it tho
DarkBear84 (22:55:59): Some day
acid nef (22:56:13): apparently i have some interesting relations on my mum's side
acid nef (22:56:44): i am descended from the people who made guinness and an exotic dancer :P
DarkBear84 (22:57:58): Your family made people happy in two very different yet possibily related and definitely worthwhile ways LOL
acid nef (22:59:09): xD

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